The Vulnerable Humanitarian: Ending Burnout Culture in the Aid Sector

The Vulnerable Humanitarian is about my experience, and the experiences of the hundreds of aid workers who took part in my doctoral research.

It is informed and inspired by the many hard-working and purposeful feminist practitioners and movements who are already challenging old paradigms and structures and creating new cultures and narratives of social inclusion and justice.

I am grateful for all I have learned, and continue to learn, from those who are committed to treading this path without giving up.

In this book you will find the stories of struggle, growth and belonging of many aid workers from across the globe - particularly those based in Kenya, where I conducted my research.

And you will also find guideposts and practices to support you and your colleagues in self- and collective care, decolonising wellbeing, and developing more inclusive and equitable work routines. Use this book for yourself, and for your team. And let me know how the book helps you - I would love to hear from you!

Are You Ready to Dive into the Heart of Humanitarian Work?

You can read the book with me, and other humanitarians and change-makers, in my book circle - a Community of Practice to support you in exploring how to integrate regenerative, caring cultures into your workplace and your life. Book Circles are a great way to stay engaged with the book's ideas, whilst connecting with other readers. I run them for individuals and for teams within organisations. 

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Praise for the Vulnerable Humanitarian

'This book puts into words what many of us in the sector struggle with: the conflicts between purpose and pragmatism, empowering others at the expense of our own wellbeing and the moments of despair when the structural inequalities perpetuated by the aid sector just seem too big to fix. But Gemma Houldey also sketches a way forward: If we re-define vulnerability as the starting point for dismantling some of the harmful practises, we have the opportunity to move forward - with more accountability, honesty and authenticity. She also unpacks how Feminist Leadership can support this process of collective healing and re-inventing the aid sector. Both academics and practitioners will find food for thought and concrete ideas in this book.'
Helene Wolf, Executive Director, FAIR SHARE of Women Leaders

'Perhaps a book 70 years in its making, it is heartfelt to know that the self-reflection of aid workers and the unmet power of their emotional needs can be examined. Not only the physical toll or emotional labour of this work, but also the need to address privilege within a global context of mental health justice, is an urgency for us all.

The boldness of 'The Vulnerable Humanitarian' is precisely this. It is resolute as a demand and understanding that there is an exchange to be made for those in the aid sector who can exercise choice and an impact that shapes the choices others rarely get to make. The author shares her own heartfelt reasoning behind the book and draws consistently on the imbalances that often unknowingly and knowingly evoke harm in aid policy, and a continuation of an out-dated aid industry.

Searching for decolonized narratives is of course a given but the depth of research exceeding personal comfort and indeed pain is a gift. Not given lightly the 'Vulnerable Humanitarian' deserves core reading and is an act of global solidarity for anyone coming to terms with their own trauma and the choices it may later prevent. As for the wider aid sector, choosing to proactively face this reality is yet to be determined, but faced it inevitably will be.'
Atif Choudhury
Co-founder and CEO of Diversity and Ability (D&A) and Zaytoun CiC

'For far too long, and while humanitarians haggle with an increasingly polarised world and with their own position in it, the self-inflicted image of the tough humanitarian remains one of the bigger neglected risks to those whose calling is helping others in distress.

By addressing this directly and unflinchingly, Gemma Houldey targets mental health issues affecting humanitarians - and not only as a mental health issue in itself, but also in how it relates to inclusion and to standing against supremacy and discrimination.'

This a much needed step towards a humanitarianism for the future.
Tammam Aloudat, MD. MpH.
Managing Director of the Global Health Centre.
The Graduate Institute of International and Development Studies, Geneva.

'A fascinating overview of the pathology of international aid as we do it today. Gemma's book is particularly valuable for its distinct understanding of national and international humanitarians, and for the organizational policies and therapies she suggests to help aid workers be better, and so feel better too.'
Dr Hugo Slim, Las Casas Institute for Social Justice, Blackfriars Hall, University of Oxford and formerly Head of Policy at the International Committee of the Red Cross.